Jesus, Bring the Rain

I've always liked the song Jesus Bring the Rain by Mercy Me, but when I heard it one the radio this morning it hit a lot closer to home than usual.  It made me think of all that's gone on in these past few months with Eric's cancer.  Sorry, I know that seems to be all I post about lately, but that's kinda what's going on in our lives, and well, you chose to run with us. :)  Here are the lyrics for those of you who haven't heard it:

I can count a million times
People asking me how can I
  Praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

One thing that hit me was how true it is that I feel so much closer to God when going through a trial.  I thought the same thing when I had my miscarriage almost two years ago.  Why is that?  When things are going well in my life I have this illusion of control and peace and it's a lot easier to get through my day without being in commune with my maker.  But when I run into road blocks or circumstances seem to take a turn for the worse I begin to feel out of control (which is really the case anyway).  It's in life's trials that I feel so much closer to Him because it's in these moments I realize He's really all I have that is secure and right and good.  So why don't I, like the song says, ask for Him to bring the rain?  Plain and simple, it's fear.  Fear of the unknown, of letting go of that false sense of control, of actually seeing what He would hand to me.  But...what if it brings me closer to Him?  My perspective needs to turn eternal, and our role in eternity is to praise Him and bring Him glory.  So, "bring me anything that brings you glory...Jesus, bring the rain."