No Time For Blogging

I'm a super task-oriented person.  Give me something to do and that will be my obsession until the job is done, and not only done, but done to my standards.  I'm my own worst critic...aren't we all?  Well, guess what...I have a job to do.  We are selling our house, so every waking moment seems to be consumed with executing this task and doing it in the least amount of time possible with the greatest return.  My whole purpose in life centers on this one thing.  Eat, sleep, work...sell the house.  There's weeds that need pulled, rooms that need painted, laundry that needs folded, cleaning, mowing, organizing, packing...the list seriously does.not.end.  Somewhere in there I have to squeeze Gregg and the boys.  Geesh!  Doesn't leave much room for anything else, does it?  And that includes blogging.  Unfortunately it also includes Bible reading...

...and prayer and daily meditation on His Word.  Seriously, aren't I getting a little too old for this?  Haven't I learned by now?  Wasn't my blog post just a few weeks ago about how I'm going to STOP running so fast and START putting Him first?  Isn't this why we're going through the pain of selling our house??? ARRGGH!!

But I have a job to do....

Blinders on.  Tunnel vision.  Sell the house.

I was standing in my kitchen the other day.  I was the only one home.  I was (you guessed it) cleaning up.  The iPod was playing.  Not a super abnormal scene.  My mind was on track...sell the house...sell the house.  For one second though, I let my guard down and I realized the same song had played twice in the span of about five minutes.  I don't know why, but it made me stop...and listen...  The voice of Jeremy Camp flooded my head and the words took over the thoughts that had been plaguing my mind for weeks..."In the morning when I rise, In the morning when I rise, In the morning when I rise, Give me Jesus."

How long has it been since I read my Bible?  Where is my Bible?  When was the last time I prayed?  Was it a prayer for myself?  I'm so thankful for the way God uses things...little things...like music to break in and meet us where we need to be met.  To remind us that we need Him.   

Give me Jesus. 

I'm always amazed at how quickly I can forget this.  I can be doing so well...in daily communication with Him and it shows.  My attitude is better, my thinking is crystal clear, the Holy Spirit seems to be super close and super active.  Then I get distracted...I have a job to do.  Hey, Jesus...you won't mind if I just take today to...?  Okay, I'll see you tomorrow.  Then tomorrow turns into next week and I'm short with my boys, hostile to Gregg, not speaking to my Savior. 

Give me Jesus.

Why do I think I can do this without Him?  In John 15 Jesus tells us to remain in Him and He will remain in us...that apart from Him we can do nothing.  To remain: to continue in the same state.  He tell us to continue to walk with Him, to continue to talk to Him, to continue to search for Him in His Word...and He will continue with us.  

Give me Jesus.

I went straight to my knees that day.  To the feet of Jesus to tell Him what He already knows...I need You.  Please help me remain in You, so that Your presence is evident in me.  Please help me to remember that You have a plan and me not pulling that unsightly crop of crab grass is not going to make the buyer You have picked out for this house change his mind.  Help me to remember that.  Help me to put You first.

Give me Jesus.